What is it that I want to do?

What is it that I want to do?

I can do so many things.

I want to do so many things.

I want to be the Best wife.

I want to be the Best mom.

I want to be the Best Auntie to JN, and my nephews and nieces.

I want to be the Best daughter.

I want to be the Best daughter-in-law.

I want to be the Best employee to the organization I love.

I want to be the Best friend to my best friend.

I want to be the Best money-making machine (a.k.a my own business). That gives me self-esteem from the world.

In short, I want to be a SuperMom SuperWoman!

But I cannot do everything. This is a time-tested principle that no one can defy.

My recent health has jogged me to the reality that God made me a mortal out of flesh and blood, and not a Superwoman. Oh God, why didn't you make me a Superwoman!!!

This time-tested principle is not just the case for FTWM, but also for SAHM. Here is a great post by a SAHM, facing the same problems as me (but she also has 4 children!!!), and it is soooooo comforting to read her post.

It is a good reminder from her that this principle also applies to our children. We all have very talented children, don't we? We are so blessed that we can give our children so many options. The author rightly puts it, "Our children cannot do everything." At some point, they need to specialize. Our role as parents is to help them find their strength and competence. (And of course the process involves trying out different things, before finally making a choice of specialization. To do this, it spells TIME from us parents!!! And this is where I have to learn to strike a balance - not easy.)

Proposal to my boss on a work option came back with counter-proposal with all the exciting and tempting things/opportunities that I can pursue at work, which would be a pity for me to let go, and which now brings me back to square-one.

I need to prioritize and stick to my choice. I guess the way I have listed the above items has given myself a clue as to where my heart really is.

I need to allow myself to grieve over all those things that I have set in my heart to let go... to let them go, let them go, let them go.

As temptation comes my way, I need to have the self-control to stand firm.

I need to go on my knees and pray that I have the wisdom to make the right decision for our family.